Well, hello, you few people who may or may not read this! I haven't blogged in a year! So needless to say quite a few things have changed....sorta. Actually I just reread some of my "latest" blogs. Wow, it felt like a walk down memory lane. So maybe I should blog more often. In social networking these days, a blog is the only spot where you can truly express yourself in more than 160 characters. I think it is time to expand my thoughts which if hopefully takes up more than 160 characters.
First, I'm a junior in college. This scares the shit out of me. Yes, ladies and gentleman, one year from now I will be teaching your children Spanish. I'll officially be a grown up. (Even typing that gives me chills.) So of course I'm thinking about this a lot lately, and I'm scared. Scared, but calm. The further into my courses I go, the more I realize that being a teacher is my calling. I LOVE TEACHING KIDS! Crazy, right? And honestly, I think that is why all this grown up business doesn't seem too bad because I get to do what I love for the rest of my life.
Would it completely shock anyone (it kind of shocks me)that I'm semi antisocial now? I honestly feel lonely a lot of the time, and I feel like I don't have anyone I can truly confide in besides my guy friends. Here's the thing: guys friends are not like girl friends. They don't want to hear about your your fashion decisions, school girl crushes, or especially...emotions. Therefore, if I'm not chilling with the guys, I'm hanging out with my best friend ever: my laptop. Pathetic right? Not really. My laptop holds all the music I could ever want to listen to because when it comes down to the nitty gritty: Without music, I would go insane. So as long as there is music in this beautiful world, I'm good.
And of course, it wouldn't be me if I wasn't completely smitten. Well, actually I haven't liked someone this much in a while. Of course though like any classy lady, I'm not going to say too much about all that. I will say this though. I'm tired of having to constantly keep myself in check and make sure I'm doing everything right i.e. not coming on too strong or asking him to hang out. And here's what I've realized: I don't need to do any of this. If a guy likes me, I'm pretty sure he can man up and do something about it. I'm not saying that a woman doesn't have any role in this, but I want to be swept off my feet damnit.
So yeah that's my little soapbox. First one in a very very long time. It's therapeutic though, so maybe just maybe (no guarantees), I might update this more than once a year.
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